What do I do now?

I know I posted this five or six weeks ago, but my race season is officially over. This time for real. :) As much as I'd love to go for a new 10K PR at Brian's Run in a few weeks, I know in my heart I need a break.

Yesterday's Philadelphia Half Marathon was a miserable experience from start to finish. The cold was brutal for a wimp like me, so my hands and feet never got completely warm. I ran by myself the entire way, except for the two instances where I saw Larry and Eileen on the course (both times they spotted me and caught up to me, only to fall behind and wish me well after chatting for a few seconds). At the finish, I actually was reduced to tears because my fingers were so cold.

Here are my splits. I missed more mile markers than usual.
8:59
8:35
17:30 (8:45 average)
16:44 (8:22 average)
9:06 (long, gradual incline, plus I slowed down for water)
17:39 (8:49 average)
9:12 (the hill leading into Fairmount Park, plus more water and walking over all the ice that had formed from the spilled water... treacherous!!!)
8:47
8:28
8:33
:56

Clearly, I lost my focus in those middle miles. I went from an 8:22 average pace during miles 5 and 6 to an 8:59 average pace for the next four miles before realizing how off target I was. Even though I sped up the last three miles, it was too late.

I missed my goal time by 3 minutes but finished 4:30 faster than last year. I should be happier about the improvement over last year, but I'm so disappointed at missing my goal. Oh well. I can't get a PR every time. I've had so much success this year, and it's a shame to have a disappointing race as my big finale, but it will hopefully motivate me to come back stronger and faster next summer.

It feels strange to not have a goal race, though. I've been so driven and so focused for the past 8 months. Now I have nothing to look forward to until a duathlon in May or June, most likely.

Until then, there is TONS of cross-training on my schedule. Yoga, weights, swimming, extra classes at the Y, some no pressure, non-race-specific running... Actually, that doesn't sound too bad, now that I think about it.

EDITED TO ADD:
I can't thank Joey T. enough for posting this on kickrunners.com -
Hang in there, Theia. I know exactly how you feel, but take a little time and you'll be ready again. Just look at the progress you've made -- disappointed in a 1:54!

Sometimes you just need a good kick in the arse to get some needed perspective. I feel ridiculous for complaining about my result. He's right. Thank you, Joey. xoxox