*Gulp*

I had my pre-surgery appointment this morning. My first question to the doctor was, "Is it normal to be TERRIFIED??" He assured me that it is... which somehow wasn't really all that reassuring.

Basically, I'm in for a world of hurt. The surgery itself will last about an hour to 90 minutes, but the pain will worsen over the first 24 hours and will last at least 4-5 days. I'll have swelling, bruising, pressure, and bleeding, and my eyes will be black and blue. I'll have to wear a splint on the outside of my nose until my post-op appointment on January 5. Keep small children away from me; I'll be S.C.A.R.Y.

Here's the worst part. No workouts for 10 days. 10 DAYS! I may possibly lose my mind.

In all seriousness, though, I really am panicked about this. This is my FACE we're talking about. I'm sure I'll be happy with the result -- primarily because I'm so unhappy with the change in my nose and overall appearance since I broke it in March (and trust me, it wasn't all that great to begin with) -- but it's absolutely terrifying to consider that I'm going to purposely re-break my nose in order to set it again. Yes, my breathing will improve. Yes, I'll probably be happier with my appearance once the increased width across the bridge is reduced. Yes, yes, yes. But holy carp am I scared.